Back to the "Junction"

I'm going to LOST myself again.

Why said so?

Final is coming soon.

After final, I've few choices to go,

but still considering.

[1st]
Further studies... Either going to Advanced Diploma or Degree in UTAR...

[2nd]
Go for work... Work as Mechanic or job that related to IT...

In a blink of eyes, 2 years and 4 month Kampar's life going to end soon.

Really have no idea which way should I choose...

Seems I'm going back to the "Junction" again...

=/

Further studies or work?

这一秒【开心】下一秒【伤心】

是我的错吗？

为什么每次有事情发生，

都是我一个人在问，

可是却得不到回答。

每次都要搞到僵了才肯把为什么给解释出来？

这样好一点吗？

我真的不懂。

有时候，

开玩笑的话，

你把它当真。

或许，

我选择沉默是最好的吧，

什么也不要问，

什么也不要管。

快乐和悲伤是需要调和的。

或许，

今天我的快乐过多了，

需要来些悲伤和谐一下。

可是也太多了吧？！？！？！

感觉上，

家人快要散了。

怎么办？？？

家庭已经够贫穷了，

还连续发生这些事情。

难道，

穷要穷的开心真的不存在？

为什么这个世界上要有误会的存在？

为什么？为什么？为什么？

“如果你不懂我在想什么，就不要用自己的语言来裁判我”

不懂你是谁都好，

请给我一个解释的机会。

深夜

好累啊~

已经是深夜四点多了。

感觉上，

好像忽略了你，

是我不懂得珍惜吗？

想要平衡爱情和友情，

真的那么的困难哦？

唉~

最近都在忙自己的东西，

好像都没真正的和你拍拍拖了。

你不时在说的“变”应该是我吧？

或许，

有时候我的表达能力不佳，

让你误会了我是在骂你吧？

还是，

我只顾和朋友玩乐而忽略你？

有很多问题想问你，

可是你应该是睡着了吧？

看见你忙的样子，

除了心疼，

我不懂还有什么感觉了。

很想帮忙你，

可是有些事情又是爱莫能助。

我觉得我最厉害的就是陪你吃顿饭吧？

我真的是那么的没用吗？

答应你的东西，

好像只实现了一小部分。

经过了两次的恋情，

我不敢再轻易的许下诺言。

并不是我想要放飞机，

我有试过要早睡，

可是每次都一定有事情搞得迟了。

这两个星期，

算是最严重了吧？

每次都迟醒，

几乎把真个星期的课给逃了。

是我健康有问题了吗？

有多久没一起回我家了，

那件事对你造成的恐惧，

就好像心里有根刺，

那根刺，

何时才能拔掉呢？

有什么是真的不能开口说吗？

非得要等到事情到了误会的程度才来说明。

还是说，

大家默默地，

把事情藏在心底最好？

可是这样只会制造越来越多的误会。

两个人在一起，

最重要的就是沟通。

无论如何，

我还是想说，

【我爱你】

♥

炎热的天气

最近的天气真的是热到

是否天气热而影响到我的情绪呢？

最近总是有些不愉快的事情发生

都会发生一些嘴角

其实，都只是观点不同吧。

何必为了这而伤感情呢？

不值得吧？

相爱容易，相处难。

这是你目前感受到的吗？

要和睦共处，

其实很简单，

遇到问题时，

说出来，

大家一起解决，

不要单方面地胡乱猜测，

这只会让彼此开始怀疑对方。

要相处的愉快，

就要互相体谅对方，

关心对方，

短短的一句问候，

已经可以很窝心了。

我想要的，

其实很简单，

简简单单的爱。

无聊时，

开开玩笑，

斗斗嘴，

一份小小的麦当劳礼物，

也可以看见你的微笑，

☺你笑，我也笑☺

有空时，

一起下厨，

搞些家常便饭，

夜晚，

手牵着手，

到处闲逛，

抬头看星星。

♥♥♥

就这样爱着你，怡。

对不起BB❤

BB, 对不起哦~

最近都在忙着应付practical test和written test。

没什么时间陪你，

有时候知道你的心情，是很想我陪在身边。

我也做了我能做的，

每晚陪在你身边，

没在身边也至少在我可以看到的视线范围，

因为这样我才可以知道你在做些什么，

就算在那发呆也好，

我也可以马上和你聊天，

逗你开心，

对不起嘛，

有时候，我不是故意弄你生气的，

因为我比较呆，这你知道的吧。

不好意思咯，让你有着这样的一个男朋友。

不懂你会不会羡慕人家，男朋友会弄些有意义的事让女朋友开心、或是惊喜之类的。

其实我有想过，可是有时候真的很累很累，就没去想了。

我也不懂为什么，是我懒？还是我有病呢？

我不是故意让你失望的，有时候真的是爬不起来。

对不起了。。。

让你一次次的失望。。。

PS: I loving you all the way I can. Meg❤

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Wow~ Lots of spider web sticking around.

Seem long time didn't visit here already...

Every time when I was here, it's sure that I've something to tell.

11th March - The biggest disaster to the Japan. 8.9M earthquake and tsunami.

When I've heard the news, I not think that's terrible until I watched the LIVE news. Although I didn't speak it out, but in my heart, "OH MY GOD!", that's was very scary and terrible twin disaster happened to the Japan. The farm, the gas factory, houses, cars and ships all destroy by the tsunami. Hope that the victim will be fine, the amount of dead will be in control. Amithaba...

Is that the world is going to end?

Just do everything and treat everyone nicely and fully hearted.

Mother, I'm sorry that I'm not your good son and always troublesome you.

I just hope you will be always cheerful and happy.

Don't always think that you are alone in this world.

You still got sister and me.

We will always by your side.

About Meg.

I felt very sorry to my dear.

I'm not the perfect one.

BUT

I'm trying to be the unique for you.

I know that, sometime you are angry with me, just you didn't spoke out.

I'm sorry that I not very good in sweet talk, I don't know how to say something make you happy everyday.

I'm the one always troublesome.

I'm sorry that I'd mention about the "pass".

I know my apologize would not change anything but I just want to tell you.

In the thunder rain, I didn't accompany by your side, left you alone. Sorry...

In the rain, still need you fetch me by umbrella. Sorry...

I'm sorry that I'd broke the promises.

I'm sorry that I unable to protect you when you get scold.

I'm sorry that when you were sick, I was not around.

I'm sorry for all the unhappiness that I'd brought to you.

Every time, when you didn't answer my call or reply my messages, I was scared. Worry that is that anything happen to you, is it you meet any trouble. If there is a possible, I will be at your side every moment, every second.

Am I the perfect one in your heart?

Hmmm... I don't think so...

I have many dissatisfied qualification to be the perfect one.

Isn't that every feeling, every thought also need to declare?

You asked me, how much did you worth in my heart.

I answered, you are uncountable values.

Almost all the time, I do everything also will think about you.

When the sky get darker, I will worry that will you walking back in the rain.

When I was playing snooker or DotA, I will worry that you will be alone and message with you.

When I was eating, I will think that have you taken any meal.

When I was lying on bed, I will think that are you sleeping.

When I was taking medicine, I will think that did you take your medicine.

When I said I miss you, I'm really missing you.

When I said I love you, I'm really love you.

I realized what people said, not every "I love you" also will get the answer "I love you too".

I said this not because of I want to get the answer, just want to tell you that my "I love you" is sincerely from my heart not because of the promise.

I'm glad and happy that I have a good girlfriend like you.

I didn't have any word, just hope that the moment that we are together are happy and sweet.

I love you, Meg.

给艾丫的话

是时候放下了，

人生有几个十年？

为何因为当年的事，而搞到大家不开心？

没有人知道你在想些什么，

也没有人敢问你，你到底在想些什么，因为，沉默是你的选择。

是时候把恩恩怨怨放下了吧，别再钻牛角尖了。

给人家一个改过自新的机会，也个自己一个新的生活吧。

这个新年，我什么也不祈求，只求家人和和气气，平平安安的过日子。

新年就真的能快乐吗？

或许，从不同的角度去看，就会有不同的答案吧。

把心胸放宽一点吧。

有句话说，“穷要穷得开心”，已经是穷了，就把日子过得快乐一点吧。

手掌是肉，手背也是肉，有时我真的不知道要怎么去开口，而不是我不说。

这就是我的命运了，没什么好怨的，只要和和气气，平平安安就好。