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Today Dad came back. We watch "Independenc Day" together. During the movie, I don't know why mom suddenly left the room. After the movie end, dad caring about my shoulder and wrist wound. When I went down and ask mom for going out supper, she was moody all the time and start bla bla bla again. Haiz~ Just wanna have a happy time, a family together go out and eat supper only also difficult. After today, maybe dad will going back to grandma house again. WHY?! Why my family will become like this?

I was EMO after that.

Haih~ 2230 I was lying on my bed, thinking about why will those happened in my family. Thinking thinking, suddenly think of her, I also don't know why I will think of her, suddenly recall back our memory at Penang.

Those time dating, celebrating her birthday, bring her to the sea side, her caring when I was back from work, mood on every wednesday, the moment when I was accident and stay in ward, her visit and promises. Suddenly all these thing flash over my mind. Isn't it I still got feeling to her? or just a memory recall?

...Unknown...

安静的手机

好静的手机，自从分手以后，它变得如此的安静。

何时我的手机才会恢复以前的热闹呢？

总是觉得我的朋友都好像不见了，去了哪儿呢？

有情人的都陪另一半去了吧，

单身的应该都在为目标前进吧，

我呢，还是自个儿在家闷着，朋友们都到处去玩了，

看来在家里，吃喝玩乐就是我的假期了吧，

真不充实，无聊到~

朋友们~你们都在哪了？

好想念以前的太平的生活，

虽然，已经是过去了，

但是，还是依然的想念。

昨天有人问道：如何这样快把一个人忘了？

我回答说：那不是忘了，只是一段美好的过去。

难道，他对我这没用的还留着一线希望吗？

我们还可能吗？未知数。

霞，你和他要过得幸福呀，我会祝福你们滴，加油加油！

炎热的星期天下午=(

炎热的下午，我在冷气房里上网和看戏，突然，一面熟悉的脸孔出现在我面前-我爸。差不多有整个月没见到他了，他还是不回来跟妈住，都住在婆婆家。沉默的他，今天尽然会开口问我，“源，为什么你这么瘦了？”，于是我便跟他聊了几句，说起我学业方面的问题，还给了我一些零用钱。我以为他改变了，会扳回来和我们一起住，怎知，过了半个钟，他说要回去了。那时的我，已经是准备睡午觉了，所以昏昏沉沉的睡着了。突然，我被一阵吵闹声惊醒了，原来是爸妈在吵。我想妈应该是不想爸走所以才吵的吧，每一次都是这样，妈的话，爸都听不进耳。于是，就这样离开了。妈的泪水，忍不住得又流了出来，我都不知要怎么安慰他。不知怎么了，每一次遇见这样的场面，我都会把自己变得沉默，静静地在一旁不出声，就像小时候。我真是没用，不懂得阻止这一切的问题，唉~

望着你

天 已灰暗了
我的心冷了
思念已堕入谷底了
天 已不再蔚蓝了
我真的太累了
是否应该把爱放开了
我想带你走到海边（看看这世界）

永远都靠在我的肩

我望着你的脸
忽然有种感觉
我对你的爱再次浮现
我相信我对你的爱永不会变
我望着你的脸
你看着我的眼
相信我爱你会是永远
因为这一切我都不想它再改变
会一直到永远
我想带你走到海边（看看这世界）
永远都靠在我的肩
我望着你的脸
忽然有种感觉
我对你的爱再次浮现
我相信我对你的爱永不会变
我望着你的脸
你看着我的眼
相信我爱你会是永远
因为这一切我都不想它再改变
会一直到永远
这些回忆到哪里去找 只有你我才经历到
我要和你 到天荒地老 喔
我望着你的脸
忽然有种感觉
我对你的爱再次浮现
我相信我对你的爱永不会变
我望着你的脸
你看着我的眼
相信我爱你会是永远
因为这一切我都不想它再改变
会一直到永远
我爱你到永远

Nice song from my friend, Wayne.

第二天的假期

今天放假的第二天，唉~无可奉告。我本以为这放假应该会过得开心点吧，怎知道。今天晚上，她们吵了两个小时的架。我无能为力，只好等她们“休战”了才去安慰她们吧。这事情常发生在我的家庭，不是这边吵，就是那边吵。看来我从小的记忆就是这样的吧。俗语说：“穷有穷开心”，这句话是真的吗？我可不见得。我不知道要跟谁说这件事，只好跟“部落格”说咯。但是，部落格能安慰我吗？这也不见得。我跟她已经没关系了。

放手，放开所有，彼此更自由，

放手，其实我绝非爱得不够，

放手，豁出所有，还有这个好友，

已经，已经足够。

突然很想唱着一首歌，“爱不疚”

唉~不说啦，希望明天会更好！

The 1st Day of Holidays

Long time didn't have such a nice rest already since the "war". The 1st day of my holiday, woke up at 12pm. Although last night didn't have electric supply, but I also sweet sleeping. Maybe it is holiday. After bath, went kitchen and cooked my "breakfast". Mi Hun Soup again. Long time didn't cook by myself already. Hmmm... It's a hot afternoon, I stay at air-con room and online with my lappy. Argh~ Very uncomfort with my hair style now. Wanna change it during this semester break. "Shocking Wave", a saloon that I'll usually go for hair cut at Taiping, quite a long time didn't back to the place. Many friends also will have semester break start on next week. Hope can meet them at Taiping during this holiday. Erm... 1st day, my phone quite quiet, less sms less call, both phone also. Missing all my buddy. Suddenly think of a question, " Who will really be my best friend?". Sigh. Today only realize that my grandma get property from my pass away uncle. RM20k, how will she spend on it? Giving it to his son? Clear the owner's money? Haiz. I think won't share with us. Mom told this to me in evening. Dad no news, will he come back during my holiday? Don't know how to tell him about the next semester's fees. Haiz. My family problem make me so down.

This was the 1st day of my holiday.

战争后...

终于，两个星期的长仗已经结束了。最后两个科目的冲刺都和“队友”们战到最后一刻。半夜还派我去买“军粮”呢。唉~现在放假了，应该很轻松才是，我反而担心我的成绩。担心如果考不及格，借不到PTPTN的贷款，我就惨了。怎么办？这放假打算到槟城和太平玩，不知去不去得成。今天早上，第一次在金宝早起床，看见浓浓的雾，很久没看见了。一个人的早餐，一个人的旅程。孤零零的一个人，我的另一半呢？真的是时候完全放下她了吗？最近只和情信息多，不知是否有机会呢？突然对自己没有信心了。唉~怎么我的感情上了学院就完了呢？

我+她!=我们

队友：伟杰+杨 xD

军粮：Maggi Mee Goreng Double + Nescafe Ice + Chicken Burger Special

090909 九月九号零九年

090909,一千年才出现一次的日子，没什么特别的事情发生。一大清早，阿良到我房间把我叫醒，要我教他数学题，跟着伟杰和杨也来了。我们四个一起在我家做最后的冲刺，冲啊冲的，已经冲到一点了，是时候上战场了。倒霉的是我忘了拿ID card和Exam Slip，于是和大伙儿吃完了午餐就赶回家拿。当我一翻开题目纸，只有两个字出现在我脑海，“完了”，Fundamental Mathematics的题目真的是让人大吃一惊，从未看过的题目方式，尤其是第三题，完全的不会做然后只好选择了放弃当作我的答案。唉~这件事让伟杰头痛不已，一考完了，我望去右边，看见他一脸不知如何是好的表情，我猜，他应该在这一张纸遇上了很大的困难吧。我和他吃了晚餐后，就到我家准备做Programming的冲刺，怎知，才动了那么的一面，我们就坐在那边谈天了，谈了谈，就“谈”到A-Station去玩。唉~真是的。接下来，就去了喝茶。想一想，我也很久没和朋友出来喝茶了，一两个星期了吧。无聊的坐在电脑前，想起了感情的问题，她真的值得我去等吗？这问题突然浮现在我脑海一阵子。没有另一半的日子已过了两个月，接下来的日子，我能遇见新一段感情吗？还是一个未知数。这是一个怎么算都算不出的未知数。爱情，它曾经跟了我一些日子，如今它离开了我，何时才会回来呢？当拥有时不懂得珍惜，等到失去了才后悔。希望现在在拍拖的，要懂得珍惜你的另一半，还没拍拖的，要珍惜眼前人哦。。。

A Relax and Happy Sunday

Last Sunday went Ipoh with friends. Boon Tatt be the driver and fetch us to Ipoh Parade. 5 of us got Wei Keat, Guan, Yang, Boon Tatt, and me. This time go Ipoh Parade shopping not only shopping and watch movie, the most important thing was WK gonna meet a "friend". We depart from Kampar about 12 noon. Hungry ah~ The 1st thing We had done is to buy movie tickets then we only had our breakfast+lunch at Kopitiam Junction in Ipoh Parade. During that time, WK was brought his "friend" come and meet us at the Kopitiam. The girl not bad and nice looking. WK was shy at the 1st, they less communicate with each other. That was funny when we looking at them. Haha. Lots of jokes during we shopping. Ah Guan keep "cook porridge" with his girl. WK keeps asked us how to do and how to do. Funny man. At last, they were together. Another friend in love again. Haiz~ How about me? Single for few months already. When only I meet my love one? Really miss those time when I was in a relationship. Miss the time when I'm dating. Don't talk about sad things now. Continue the "journey" at Ipoh Parade. We watched "Final Destination" which is a horror movie that on screen now. The movie was very disgusting. Around 4.30pm the show was ended. We back at 5pm. When arrived at Kampar, I was very tired and just sleep on the spot. After one hour rest, Me and WK together had our dinner at the kopitiam which opposite my hostel. After dinner, we went A-station for gaming. Back at 12am. That day totally relax. After that I hope that I can start study on other subject, this Wednesday got Maths paper. Although this subject not a problem for me, but also need to do more exercises to improve and improve. Gambateh neh!

考试期间

考试咯，已经考了第二张纸。接下来还有三张要考。最近都和一些朋友一起读书，就好象以前考SPM那样。English Language的作文，我犯了很大的错误啊，不知道该怎么办，我竟然看错题目，于是离题了。唉~之后就到Hubungan Etnik，这科可折磨我咯，死命背了笔记，还好今天考的时候会回答，果然是有付出就有收获。接下来，星期三考数学，这不用怕了，我的强项，哇咔咔~大考后，有三个星期的假期，到时候都不知道要做些什么，去太平？去槟城？还是留在怡保？没钱花了耶，应该是跟妈到档口帮忙吧，然后再去玩。考试这段时间，我都将自己躲在房间里读书，连网也少了上。明天还得和朋友们到怡保去逛街，唉~又要花钱了。怎么这世界什么都要用到钱啊？家人又在为钱而烦了，都不知道几时才不用烦钱的事情。说到这里，心情突然很低落。唉~就在这停了吧，下回再继续。